Like this:

Why is it that I never look forward to seeing my family, but I always look forward to seeing my friends?

The answer, truthfully, is simple. Every time I go back, I’m reminded on how much apathetic my family has grown over the years towards each other, how so very uncommunicative everybody is, and how un-fulfilling Ukiah is. In Ukiah, I always have the feeling that something’s wrong, that giving each other the cold shoulder is something that has become the status quo. No matter how hard I try to change things, nothing changes. I feel like Sisyphus – constantly rolling that boulder up the hill only to watch it crashing down, vaporizing all progress. (Though hopefully I don’t have quite the same level of evil deeds to my credit as he did…)

At times like these, I honestly have to say I really look forward to getting over to Princeton in September, and forgetting about those things which are too late to alter for the better. I really thank everyone I know outside of Ukiah – at Princeton, and the co-staff members at CTY – for keeping me sane and happy. It’s this that allows me to be joyul and still live life the way it’s meant to be – with a mind of hope and exhilaration.

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